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i felt like you loved me just to spite me. you remembered my sisters birthday. i never wanted to answer your calls. you read my favourite book. i left you on read for days. you bought my favourite ice cream flavour. i forgot about our plans. you surprised me with flowers. i called you the wrong name. you took photos of me in the sunlight. i would get mad at everything. you painted my nails for me. my hands wouldn’t stop shaking. you remembered all your promises. i always wished you would forget. you made me feel so lovely. i wanted to hide from you. you know how i take my coffee. i dont know your favourite colour. you met my parents. i wish they would stop asking about you. your eyes always shined at me. i hate eye contact. you got me my favourite necklace. i wear it every day. you talked about our wedding. i wanted to go home. you held my hand like it was fragile. i wanted to break yours. you told me i was beautiful. the words sounded like metal scraping in my skull. you were all i ever wanted. i didn’t deserve you. you didnt deserve me. you glowed like the sun. we always joked that i was vampire. you texted me all the time. i pretended you didn’t exist. you wanted to go on dates. i was claustrophobic. you gave me everything you could. it was more than i could bear.